TRY
i must try.
times like this just make me feel worse.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
Friday, April 21, 2006
*BREATHE*
Thats all i can do. Im weary.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Certain thoughts on days like this.
today i thought, "i can only count on myself".
and realised the new replaced stud looks uglier then the replaced.
new doesn't mean better.
then find that noone is there when i need them the most. *sniff*
amazed that a packet of california maki can make me feel so much better,
but can only afford one.
thereafter i was so restless that i banged my eye into the bamboo pole. darn.
But still, i remind myself that theres always someone there for me
to fall back on, no matter what.
For that, im thankful.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
why does my stomach always hurt ? Im in severe pain now. must be the rushed kfc dinner. its always their stuff. horrid. i shall strike them off my food list from now on. ugh.. indigestion again.
*sniff*
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
"Aahhhh... "
Listening to : My Writes - Love in the 60's
It has been a loooooong time since i put on face masque.. my faces all clogged with black and white heads. gigantic acne popping up all areas.
FINALLY
some free time to do this.. to have the luxury of sitting and waiting. and seeing my face a little clearer and radiant.. its nice to have some "me time" once in awhile.. im also telling myself to take things with in my stride. not to be bothered by what others do. be more "open-minded". :) life will be so much easier and happier. oooooohh.. saw pretty dresses at topshop earlier. with i had the $ to buy everything. till i clear my long overdue debts. Wait for me !!!- my beloved olive overalls is still there! i want! Vouchers available.. *hint* muahahhahahahha..
P.S I LOVE YOU.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
i might have been neglecting my friends.. i've been so caught up with daily work and commitments that i forgot bout keeping in contact. sometimes i don't even know what to say anymore. its almost like we lost the touch? I guess its time to re-organise and sort things out.. sorry gals.
*tired*
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i cant breathe. the airs clogged. still. sticky. my face is itching. breakouts.
my moods changing constantly and he doesn't understand. i don't know how i want him to react.
JUST BE THERE AND LISTEN, ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT I SAY ONCE IN BETWEEN. THATS ALL.
don't say things to spite me. judge me. u know i get piss off easily. i don't mean to give ya an atittude. you just don't know me.
i feel like dying. lifes getting horrid again. yings not feeling too gd these days and i don't know what to do.schs starting and im feeling lost and panicky again. the waiting and waiting for the 1st tuition pay didn't arrive today. im angry. disappointed. i hate to see myself become a person that i hated. to-slogged-for-money is the word. sometimes i feel that i might be abusing the word 'PMS'. But thats the only word that i can contribute to since its coming soon. i hate it. i wanna scream too. i wish i can cry off the frustrations that i have and feel inside. the weariness. stuffiness. i hate my room. my home. the dust. bugs. ants. especially them. they bite me. wtf. i need to whine and be pampered. to be loved. to be coaxed. why an't u coaxing me? i need you.