one more paper to go. oh well, i hadn't studied properly at all..
went to en' for help and zhen xiong came too. (they are my cousins.) i don't know why i get stressed up whenever they are "tutioning" me.. the thing is they never pressurize me u see. however, i clamp up and feel and awkward especially when zhen xiong is around. maybe its becos they are so good with their studies and im so slacky. don't know.
i wonder why does everyone differs? why do some people have the drive and motivation to study while some can't really be bothered? what makes one sit down and ponder over books while he/she could could be watching tv? is it the way they were brought up? u know, i never get upset when i get my results back becos i know i didn't study for that paper. i feel nothing man. heaven knows. in fact, why the surprise and stuff? everyone should know how he/she fare for the paper even before the results came back. becos only you yourself know if you studied at all.
frankly, im pretty upset with myself for not studying for my info comm paper today. it was just memo work man. as usual i watched tv till late last night and without coffee, i couldn't stay awake and went to bed. i have been telling myself that i must study but yet. am i just simply too lazy or what? ever since i start failing papers since secondary 3, i can't really be bothered about grades anymore. to me, a pass was gd enough. im not one who tries to score better then his/her friend.. i don't see the need to. i hate it when people ask people whats their grades etc.. it gets irritating when its too much. i mean whats the point? why are humans so competitive? why can't life be simple? too much whys. no answer. doesn't matter.
oh damn. im so so fat. all piled up in my tummy. have been eating and eating for the past few mths.. i know this might sound exaggerating but if i were to release my stomach out, i will look like im pregnant! really. rem how i used to say my tummy is so big that i can't see my toes? well, i think im achieving that goal soon. *rolling of eyes* UGH.. i know i've been procrastinating for a long time already. but im just too f***ing lazy to move my butt off that couch and exercise? ( u are a goner.) i can already imagine how i look like when im in y 30s, - with lots of layers of fat around my waist and a big bulging stomach. i swear im definately not looking like that. no more fast food and chips. hmm. does maria france wanna pay me to slim down? =p